HELP!

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This may end up as a cross-post, depending if anyone answers.
I don't know where to post this so maybe this is the place to post it(ignore typos im really really tired). I have the worse computer ever, I've tried anti-virus' like norton but it messed up my computer even more. it foudn the love you bug virus and then it kept searching while booting up and getting it, it took forever to un-install and when i did it messed up alot of things on my computer (such as my internet, for hotmail i cant delete ANYTHING without opening the thing up and hitting delete. i get about 70 spam mail a day and 25 real emails a day, yes 25.) and then anyways, its a really bad computer and i dont wanna take it into the shop because they over charge you and my cousin knows alot about computers but my parents keep on bitching at me about asking him because its not right, and i see him at the end of the year at the family reunion for x-mas, i may see him sooner but not at my house. the reunion is at my house this year, so yeah i get to see him. i also tried to reboot my whole machine but it always freezes at the screen that asks if you want to reinstall the computer, or the programs that came with the compiter (ie: microsoft works or something). oh yeah, i have a HP Pavillion Windows 1998. and i reinstalled my whole computer before. i tried defragmenting but that never ever works, the farthest it made was like 37 percent, and i made sure no one touched the computer or anything, ive had the computer for about 2 years or so, maybe 3. um, yeah norton anti virus 2003 messed it up (waste of 50 bucks, huh?) and well, i need help, should i post more about my computer? maybe, it freezes alot and its slow and everything, i cant uninstall alot of stuff like winamp ( i dont use it) because it says that theres a virus, and i dont dare install norton until i go on a vacation (to leave the computer on as it scans the files to be virus free) and then i can do that, the vacation is in 2 weeks. on the normal internet ( i use realplayers web broswer) it freezes for a bit when i post any forms or something, like if i go to google.com and type something like "South Park" itll take about 2 minutes before it finally does anything, so i use real player which doesn't have that problem in the browser. ive tried so many times to reinstall the computer but nothing works, ive taken apart a computer ONCE but that was at a camp, and i dont know what one is the hard drive itsself or anything so i cant do that, and i as i said the computer store i refuse to go to (hey they may read some very personal documents! ) so, yeah, i cant do anything becuase my computer is so messed up, so someone PLEASE help me, i swear to GOD you will be my god and i will love you soooooooooooooooooooooooo much, ill make a post on my LJ about this and if you can help me, post there, or post here (ill check back every now and then) so please help me, please please PLEASE!. its kinda long so i put it in lj cut for you